Saturday, March 26, 2011

Ball Dropped

It kills me to see statements of happiness with not me. I don't want my best friend to hurt one bit, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt me that much more. I'm glad she's having a great time and I wish I wasn't so selfish. That's what kills me. I kill me. The ball was definitely dropped.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Target Kickball

Today I plan to participate in a kickball game that matches two Target store up against each other. 844 vs. 1973. I work at 844 and we plan on winning. This could be a lot of fun. There is also a barbeque after the game. I'm super excited.

Also, this photo stirs up all kinds of emotions in me.



Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Newd

I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself, so I'm done with that. My love will never stop but me pitying myself has to.

Some really good things have started to happen. Namely, I've been getting back into running and that feels great. As long as I stick with running I should be able to get back into shape fairly quickly. I've set some attainable goals for myself. I'd like to be able to run a 24 minute 5k by graduation. That was my average time when I was in high school running cross country. My harder but still possibly attainable goal is to run a 5k in 21 minutes. Running is fun and the pain is good sometimes.

Marathon has also been coming into my head lately. I think it would be cool to accomplish that, especially since it is so hard for me to run 3 miles right now.

I've also been reading my bible and other assorted books lately. That has been really rewarding.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

He's not me and you're not you


I'm sick and tired of feeling like there's something I should be doing that I am forgetting to do all the time. I need to get over this so I can live my life but that seems impossible to do right now. I wish life wasn't so uncertain sometimes.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

If you really care about her, you would care more about her happiness then yours.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

News and Notes(8/25/10)

Looked at this blog this morning and saw I had a new comment on my post I did about my hair. I looked at the comment and it made my day. Someone commented regarding me helping them with an assignment that they were trying to work on and that I had been one of their resources. I take that as a great honor.
Also, I skipped my first class of the semester today. I would have liked to have gone but I forgot to put in my change of availability for the semester. So I worked instead of classing it. I don't plan on missing another class though. I also don't plan on being late for my 9:30 class tomorrow(or ever).
As many of you know, my phone's screen stopped working recently. Occasionally if I shimmy it right, I can see things but that is not working all of the time. I do like having little sense of time and being out of reach sometimes but it is really difficult when making plans. I also got to answer the phone without knowing who it is. It's like I'm living in the 90's again. Mi amigo, Tyler, offered me his phone to use but it doesn't seem to be working for me either. It only turns in when it is plugged in and even when that happens, it won't let me do anything. By golly I would like to get this figured out soon.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

न्यूज़ एंड नोट्स (८/२४/२०१०)

First thing of note is that in my practice class there are 27 people total including the professor and I am the only person there with a Y chromosome. There usually is a high girl to guy ratio in my SW classes but this is the first time I've been alone. Not necessarily a good or a bad thing, just saying.
In my family problems class, I know a lot more people than I thought I would know. I knew I was going to know Amanda, Kori, and Lindsay. I didn't realize that SW Sean, John C, and Kayla P were going to be there. Not to mention the football players that are in the class. (5; Taiwan, Debrale, Everette, Cameron, and Avis)
At work, there was a shake weight(tm) that was not in the box and I was playing with it for a while. I learned a lot about myself by playing with the shake weight(tm). I also learned that there are at least three ways to use the shake weight that don't just seem silly. Number one is, pretend you are digging a ditch. Put the shovel in the ground and shake for a second, and then throw the dirt over your shoulder and shake for a second. Number two is, to pretend you are rowing a boat. A couple of shakes to the left followed by a couple of shakes to the right. Number three is, do the Jersey Shore fist pump. This one works better if you are to put on some House Music during the exercise.
I can't stop listening to the new Arcade Fire album. It's in my car on a cd and it hasn't made it's way out yet.

Friday, August 6, 2010

बिग हैर

When the weather outside gets to be humid, as humid as it sometimes gets in the summer in Tallahassee, my hair gets big. I would consider my hair to be naturally wavy. Without humidity there is very little actual curl in my hair. When the humidity comes out to play, that's when little tufts of my hair starts to go into little curling frenzies. That's when I get ringlets in my hair and when my hair starts to get big. My hair, unlike some people's, doesn't grow down on the sides. It likes to grow out in order to see how wide it can make my head look. I think there is a contest that it going on to see how far away the tips can get from each other.
Yesterday, in my thinking chamber, I was thinking of how I would describe my hair and instantly I knew it wouldn't be considered an afro from most people that saw it(which is disappointing because I would very much like to have a classic afro, although it probably wouldn't look as good on me as it does on my cousin, Russell). It is also pretty close to the traditional jewfro, but I think it is less curly and more big than that. I finally settled on calling my hair a "halfro"(pronounced: Half Fro) when it is out and about in the world.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

साद

I'm sad that With a Big Heart and Open Eyes us no longer an up and running blog @ blogspot.com. The occasional post was nice and it was also nice to have that one way to occasionally communicate. This is still weird for me to think about, as I have never been in this situation before. Hope something happens soon or I might drive myself crazy with anticipation. 'Miss' doesn't seem to cover it for some reason.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Today

Zach comes back today and that's a good thing. At least I think he comes back today. I missed him when he was being all french and stuff. I'm excited for the new semester and everyone getting back to Tally so we can all have a good time again.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Today.

Today is a brand new day. I'm excited to get started. I wonder what I will do and where my heart will take me. There are things I know I need to do, but I just really want to enjoy the sun. Also, no more fast food for me. I'm also really trying to cut down on my pop intake. These things are going to be very difficult for me. I really love pop and fast food is so cheap and easy to buy. We'll see how it goes. But if you see me doing any of these things, try and hold me accountable. Maybe I can defy myself and accomplish these things.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

dreams

I can't wait until I'm dreaming again. Everything is the way that I want it to be at those times. Why can't reality be more like this...

Thursday, July 29, 2010

It was good to get that out of the way, now there's no excuses.
No reason why it can't work out the way we had it planned all along.
Which means that it has to work, right?
If there's nothing in the way?
Well, nothing except for you.
And nothing except for me.
Now we are our own worst enemies to the plans we made years ago,
that we always had excuses for.
All I can do is go all out at this point.
Let nothing stop me but respect.
Nothing but respect for you.
And nothing but respect for me.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Things will start turning out the way you want if you just stop doubting that I love you.

Monday, July 26, 2010

The most wise thing I've heard all week

Set specific times during the day to dive into the word of God.
Anytime turns into no time way too easily.

Mike Braun said something close to this in his sermon on Sunday and it has really stuck with me. This has been a probably for me and I think these words can help me to be more consistent in reading my bible everyday like I want to. I've really enjoyed the summer sermons but I can't wait for Pastor Erik to be back.